rescue me, somebody.

"There's an empty place inside of me that only he can fill."
metaphorically speaking, of course. :P

*sigh* The song makes me sad. My unresolved issues make me sad. Over dinner with mash and shang I realised (or rather, they pointed out) that I still haven't accomplished the things I wanted to do 6 years ago. Or should I say, since six years ago. As I unveiled my new plan, they pointed out that it was the plan of 6 years ago, repackaged. The plan was to clean my room, declutter my life of undesirable elements. lol. Detox my life. I resolve to do it by the end of this month so I can have the next 6 years to obsess over something other than the clutter in my life. Clutter - useless things you accumulate that take up the space of things that could be meaningful. I think it's sad that I see so little of the people who make me happy, the little beacons who light up my life. It's just disappointing, some of the choices I've made these past years. I've had some regrets and maybe things would have turned out better had I done something differently but I have no power over that now so better I concentrate on things I do eh?

Right now I'm very overwhelmed. I didn't do my homework. I haven't not done homework since primary school, when, as the annals of history would show, I was a monster child - every teacher's nightmare. But I'm in freaking university now! I'm struggling with a one page memo due three days ago. What the hell is wrong with me.

IED has completely thrown me off and I'm gonna need to work triply hard to catch up now. My Justice presentation is NEXT freaking week and I've got no freaking idea what the freaking hell is going on... My Qualitative memo lies in shards and fragments of ideas before me... I have to skip my Computing lecture yet again to deal with it (although I have been going for the tutorials)... I am a little bit lost in Social Policy. ARGH. I need to get my life in order.

I'm sad that the people who were there for me last semester/last year have walked out of my life, even if they're still around. It just... it just saddens me is all. I guess Honours year really is an individual endeavour.

IED was good, by the way. And it was partly schoolwork - networking for contacts for my thesis interviews. :) Plus, I'm getting paid for it so w00t!

Speaking of w00ts, *KICKS*.